Wednesday, 15 June 2016

Every end is a new beginning.. :)

 Преди дванайсет години, с плахи стъпки и трепетно сърце, прекрачих за първи път прага на нашето училище. Едно русоляво момиченце, с дълги коси и невинни очички, бе вперило поглед в развяващото се знаме и под звуците на училищния химн мечтаеше. В същия този двор, със същата приветливост и топлина, то пое ръката на своята първа учителка и заедно тръгнаха по пътя на познанието. С всеки изминал ден нови и нови картини за света се разкриваха пред очичките на това невинно дете. Ръка за ръка със своите съученици те достигаха нови непознати висини и с бавни, но сигурни стъпки се изкачваха  по стълбата на познанието. Не винаги обаче беше лесно – едни мечти ставаха реалност, други падаха в праха, едни висоти биваха преодолени, други оставаха недостижима цел. Но винаги  в края на тъмния тунел проблясваше глуха светлина и там чакаше една протегната ръка.
  
Неусетно минаха месеци, години, и ето, че вече порасналото момиченце е готово да поеме по своя път. Днес всички ние се намираме на този кръстопът, от където всеки ще поеме своята посока. Може би никога повече няма да се пресекат пътищата ни, но винаги ще имаме едно общо място, където всеки е добре дошъл – нашето училище.

Това е мястото, където всеки ден бивахме посрещани с топли думи и ведри усмивки. Тук учителите ни дариха не само с познание, но и с подкрепа. Научиха ни да четем и пишем, но също така ни научиха да бъдем  хора. Тук завързахме първите си приятелства, но също така тук усетихме и първите си разочарования от тях. Но най-важното от всичко – между четирите стени на класните си стаи открихме себе си, сред пъстротата от персонажи. Опознахме интересите си, открихме добрите си и лошите си страни и се научихме да бъдем не проста хора, а личности.

Днес, обръщайки поглед назад, може да не помня всеки един урок или всяка една теорема, но винаги ще помня факта, че това училище ме научи да вярвам в себе си и да не се отказвам от мечтите си. В този момент в главата ми изплува едно писмо, написано от първата ми учителка, чиито последни редове гласяха: „Всеки ден ще чакам да позвъни телефона, за да ми кажеш: „Аз успях!” И сега аз се обръщам към нея, както и към всички други учители, които са били до мен по пътя през всичките дванайсет години с думите: „Аз наистина успях!”

И ето, че и днес прекрачих училищния праг и от далечината чух звънецът да звъни. Уж бе същия звънец, а сякаш бе различно. Може би, защото беше за последно. Както всеки ден детски глас и смях изпъваха училищните коридори и бавно заглъхваха след гласа на звънеца, изгубвайки се в тишина. Еднообразни трептения изпълваха въздуха, но този път сякаш ми нашепваха едвам не „Добре дошла!”, а „Сбогом!”



Hello everybody! This is the speech that I wrote for graduation day and I didn't have the chance to read it in its original form so I decided to share it here. I am sorry it is in bulgarian. I tried translating it but decided against it halfway through. I just felt like I was taking away its individuality and the feelings I have put in it. If I ever change my mind I will post the English verson. :)
xoxo Monny 
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Monday, 2 May 2016

The Beginning of the End




Here I am  two weeks before the last year of school ends for me.It has not even officially ended yet but I felt the need to express all of the feelings I have been keeping to myself for the past twelve years. Another chapter of my life is coming to a close and I am confused - do I feel happy or do I feel sad. On one hand I am moving forward to a new and even more exciting adventure but on the other do I actually feel  accomplished with what I have done during my school life. You might think "But you are a straight A student. You have your life pretty much sorted! What more do you want?" Life is not defined by academic achievements, marks have no actual value. All they are is a representation of a temporary knowledge on a subjects one acquired in the past but have since been lost in oblivion. Excellent academic record and successful career do not guarantee a happy and fulfilling future. And it seems like I have spent so much time trying and sometimes failing to be perfect that I have forgotten to live.

I do not want to sound melodramatic or anything but it seems to me that the past twelve years of my life have been a blur.. a complete blur of nothingness. This entire time I have been surrounded by people, all kinds of people and still I feel as if I am in a little bubble of my own that no one has yet been able to pop open. Some have come close to doing it but there is always something that prevents it from happening. People have come and gone but no one has stayed for long enough to actually get to know the real me, or perhaps I am the one who doesn't allow them to? This makes me think to myself "Am I the problem? Is there something wrong with me that pushes people away? Why is everyone changing and evolving and I am stuck in this tiny universe of my own where nothing ever alters  including me?" Perhaps I get so attached to people that I do not accept the fact that as time flies people change  so I am the one who backs away. I try and keep the person as close to me as possible by picking up their habits and getting involved in their interests but then I come to the realization that this in not me and not who I want to be so I step away. In the end I am the one  left behind...

These past four years have followed the exact same routine of me getting up in the morning, going to school and coming back home in the afternoon and then nothing...I felt like I was put in a box with a bunch of people, neither of which spoke the language I spoke. As time went by I formed some friendships but they were mainly built on similar interests and nothing else which  in majority of the cases doesn't work out long term. When these two last weeks go by I am never going to see these people ever again, or we are going to pass each other in the supermarket pretending to look at something in order to avoid an awkward conversation. And this is partly my fault. I am like the black swan in a lake of white swans that no one wants to talk to but who doesn't allow them to come close either. If someone asks me what I had learned at school for all those years this is my answer: " School has taught me to learn from my mistakes and never do them again. I made the mistake of distancing myself from the others and concentrating way too much on things that I thought  were important but in reality I lost so much time for things that were actually important."
So for now on I hope my feathers will get lighter and lighter every single day so that in the end I find my place amongst all the magnificent white swans :)



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Monday, 29 February 2016

Loneliness...

Have you ever felt alone? As if there is no one there  to hold your hand, look into your eyes with an encouraging expression and just be there - next to you, where you can feel the heat of their body, the scent of their perfume. Can I have a guess? The answer is yes. Even though we don't always admit it loneliness is a feeling that everyone experiences from time to time. It is not a crime to feel lonely, it is not a crime to feel sad, and it is definitely not a crime to seek human's appreciation.

 It is not often that we look into the mirror and think "My life is perfect and I have everything I need" There's always this little piece missing from the image of the person with the perfect life. There's always that question in the back of your head "But what if I had... or what if I was...?" Even something as little and simple  as a gesture or a word can change someone's day and fill in that space until a new one opens. 

I like to consider every person as a small separate galaxy, with its own time and space, where time passes at a different speed and the sun shines from a different angle. There are no two identical galaxies,  there are just some that complete each other perfectly when combined. You need another galaxy to feel full, to feel valuable, to feel alive. There are times when we might be surrounded by people, different galaxies with a range of shapes and sizes. But none of these is the perfect match for ours. These are the moments when we feel alone, when we feel incomplete and broken. Sometimes there are people who surround themselves with others  in a desperate desire to feel humans touch, they are the ones that seem as if they are the happiest people on  earth, but on the inside they might be feeling the loneliest. And there are others who have had only a couple of friends in their live but on the inside they feel complete, accomplished....happy. It is not the number that is important, it is the value of the relationship you have with a person. Don't go after quantity, but seek quality...
It is inevitable to feel alone, it is inevitable to feel miserable, but there is always hope and it is called TOMORROW. As cliche as it may sound it is true. Feelings are never constant. The mood is like a roller coaster. It can go from its highest point to its lowest or vice versa in seconds.  How you might be feeling today does not determine how you are going to feel tomorrow. Do not dwell on past experiences and live your life for the moment, because yesterday has already passed and tomorrow might not come. Now is all we have and can control so what are you waiting for?



This is probably a little bit of an odd post but these are some thoughts that have occupied my mind in the past few weeks and I decided to share them here with you. If I have somehow provoked your thoughts on the subject I would love it if even one of you shares them in the comments down below... I hope you enjoyed it and I will be back with other new post as soon as I can!
xoxo Mony :)
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Sunday, 13 September 2015

August Favourites 2015



Hello everyone! I know it might be a little bit late for my August favourites but I decided to share the any way. These are some of my most used and loved products throughout the month  of August. I would love to hear yours so you can leave a comment down below saying what you been loving this month.
Avon Nailwear pro nail varnish in the shade Peppermint leaf
I love the Avon nail varnishes. They are very opic and have a good lasting power and what is more they are very inexpensive compared to other brands. They also have a flat brush which makes the application easier and quicker.
Rimmel London nail varnish in the shade Mary, Mary quite contrary
I don't really have to say much more for these than I said for the Avon ones. Again these nail varnishes have a flat brush and good lasting power. However, some of them do not have the best pigmentation. Unfortunately you have to apply at least three coats of this nail polish to get a nice opic colour. But I love this shade and I have been wearing it like crazy throughout the whole summer. It is the perfect pastel lilac for my skin.
Dove Invisible Dry deodorant
This is hands down the best deodorant as I have been using it for a very long time now and I don't think I am going to change my opinion soon. I bought this deodorant as a part of a gift for my mother and since then I have completely used up three cans myself. I even bought the roll on version.It smells incredible and what got me was that it doesn't really smell like a perfume but it has a really clean and fresh scent. It has a very good lasting power and it doesn't stain your clothes whatsoever. If you are looking for a good deodorant I definitely recommend trying this one.


Hean CC Cream in the shade Natural
I spoke about this one in my Mini beauty haul. If you've missed this post you can check it out by clicking here. I love this for the summer because when it's hot outside you don't really want to wear too much make up and this feels very light on the face but it also gives you a good coverage. 
Maybelline Baby Skin Instant Pore Eraser.
I know I am quite late on the party but this is a new finding of mine since we didn't have these in Bulgaria for quite a lot time. I  love popping this on my nose, chin and everywhere where I think my skin doesn't feel nice and soft . It smooths out your skin and makes your foundation look a lot better. You can use it on it's own are underneath your foundation and it will make your pores less visible.
Ziaja Goat's Milk Body Lotion
My aunt used this and she recommended it to me when i was searching for a good body lotion for the summer. This is a Polish brand and the main ingredient in their products is goat's milk. The lotion comes in a very simple and plain bottle. It has an amazing scent. It moisturises your skin nicely and it sinks in very quickly so you are not sticky for a very long time.
Zdrave cream
Now if you are from Bulgaria you are pretty familiar with this cream because it is a must have in every household. Unfortunately it is a Bulgarian brand and I am not sure if you can get it somewhere else. I have been using this creme since I was a little child. It helps with everything - blisters, wounds, scratches... etc. Name it and this creme will fix it. At the minute I am using the light formula. I apply this on my face every night before I go to bed and it really helps with spots. If you have any they heal a lot quicker than normal and if you don't it prevents them from coming. It is just an amazing cream.

And last but not least, my book favourite of the month is All the Bright Places by Jennifer Niven. But do not get misguided by the cover and the title because it is not the happiest of books. It is a young adult book and it follows the story of a boy and a girl both of whom have something in common - wanting to kill themselves. I didn't really expect too much from this book but I was actually pleasantly surprised. I am not going to give out any spoilers because you will have to read it for yourself but the book is very emotional. I loved the story and the characters and if I have to be honest I cried a little bit :D . I would be definitely rereading this very soon.


This is all I have for you today. I hope you've enjoyed this post and if you've tried any of the products that I spoke about leave your opinion on them in the comments down below and we can discuss them. Hope you have an amazing September. 
xoxo  Mony :)
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Tuesday, 8 September 2015

Back to School... Stationary Haul

 

Probably for most of you school has started already, which means that this post is slightly pointless for you, but I start school at the 15 of September ( most hated date in Bulgaria) and as usual this is one of the most stressful time of the year. What I normally do to get through this period is go shopping for supplies that I am mos probably not going to use. This year is my last year of school and naturally is wasn't an exception. Although I did buy a lot less than usual. I went shopping with my mum to this big shop in Bulgaria called Jumbo which is pretty much the same thing as Target so I wanted to share with you what I bought. 



 Last year I really went overboard with notebooks and I have so much that they would last me a lifetime but I couldn't just leave the shop without getting some new ones and these three made their way into my basket. The first one I liked mainly because of what is says on the cover " Life always offers you a second chance. It's called tomorrow." I love quotes like this one and this is literally my motto in life. Another thing about this notebook is that it has a spiral thingy on the side which is very handy and also hard covers. Now we all know how messy our school bags can get and having a hard cover notebook which is not going to get all squished inside is vital. Which is why the other two notebooks that I got also have hard covers. Last year I had a similar notebook to the one with the bird and flower but with a different design and I can say that this was my favourite notebook and it still is because I haven't even reached the middle of it. It has so many pages that you can write down so much information in it and you will still have a lot of space. And the last one I fell in love with the design. With that black line on the side and the label in the front I think it looks very vintage and I love it. It also has a timetable which is always a plus. I also got some highlighter markers in all the neon colours they had available and a packet of neon pencils to go with them. Going along with the neon theme I also got some page markers because I had some last year and I didn't really use them too much but I want to try and use them more this year. And lastly I got some pens because no matter how many pens I buy I always either lose them or I give one to someone and never see it again. So I bought the most boring ones there were and this concludes my back to school stationary haul. I hope you've enjoyed this post and I would love to see what you got for going back to school. And if you have any ideas for back to school post that you would like to see me do put them in the comments below.. 


... xoxo Mony...
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Thursday, 3 September 2015

Rimmel Lasting Finish Foundation Review...


Hello guys! Today I am going to be reviewing the Rimmel Lasting Finish foundation. Before I begin I just want to say that yes the colour that I got doesn't really seem to match me right now because I was on holiday and I have quite a lot of tan but it does suit my natural skin colour and I am hoping that my tan will fade out quickly so that I can wear again. I am going to stop boring you about me and I will jump right into the review.
So the packaging of the foundation states the following "Full coverage foundation enriched with a comfort serum. Instant perfect coverage that feels extra comfortable and lasts all day." It says it last up to 25 hours and it has an SPF of 20.
 As you may or may not know I also have the Rimmel match Perfection foundation and I have both of them in the same shade. The first thing that I noticed was  that the Lasting Finish is slightly darker than the Match Perfection and it is less liquidy. The two foundations have similar textures but the Lasting finish has better coverage and it really last longer than the Match Perfection. I haven't worn it for 25 hours but it does last all day. The first time that I tried the foundation I found that it looked a little bit cakey, blotchy and it was really obvious that I was wearing foundation, but after some time it had really blended into my skin and you couldn't really notice it. And I find that throughout the day it looks better.  
It feels very light on the skin and  you can't really tell you have foundation on your face. It blends very well and it has a very nice finish. It is not dewy like the Match Perfection but it's also not matt and drying at all so I thing it would work with all skin types. As an overall I think it is a great drugstore foundation and I will definitely be repurchasing it. It has good coverage and at the same time it doesn't feel heavy or uncomfortable. Have you use it and if you have what is your opinion on it? 
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Thursday, 27 August 2015

My Furry Friend Tag c(:


Since yesterday (26th Of August) was the National dog day I've decided that today's post would be dedicated to my little furry friend. So I hope you enjoy this little doggy post :)
1.What is your pet's name?
Her name is Aira, which probably sounds like a male name in English but believe me in Bulgaria is a very common name for a female dog.
2.What kind of pet is it and what breed?
It is a mixture between an American cocker spaniel and an English cocker.
3.How long have you had your pet?
I took her home when she was only 45 days old and I've had her for 3 years.
4.What are some quirky things about your pet's personality?
She has a very strong character and she is one of those dogs who don't like being petted or stroked by strangers. She is not friendly to other dogs, apart from homeless ones, which she adores and that is why we always joke that she is Robin Hood :D But to us she is the sweetest dog. She loves car journeys, although she can't sit still for more than 5 minutes and goes from window to window. 


(this is a picture I took of her right after she had her first hair cut so she looks like a boy)


5.How old is your pet?
As I already mentioned she is 3 years old.
6.How did you get your pet?
Funny story I didn't really want a dog. I have always been a cat person and I really wanted to get a cat for my birthday but because I had a hamster at that time I didn't want to risk it's life so I chose to get a dog. I found Aira in an advertisement on the Internet, my dad called and I had to wait for 2 weeks until she was old enough for me to take her home. Because she was born in another city ,she had to come with a bus so we got her from the bus station and I remember it was Easter Sunday. She was crying so loudly that you could hear her even from the other side of the world. It was raining so I put her under my jacket and went in the car. It was the best day in my life.
7.What are some of your favourite past time with your dog?
I love stroking her because her fur is so soft.  Every morning once I get out of the bed I sit on the couch and she lays in my lap. One of our favourite games to play together is catch. She loves running after sticks in the park and carrying stick that are too big for her.
an example:


9. What are the nicknames you call your pet?
The name Aira is very rarely used in our household. Everyone pretty much has their old nicknames for her. I like to call her Ruca or Rucemi which sounds strange and has nothing to do with her name but.. oh well. 




Do you have a pet, if so what kind and if you don't do you want to get one?
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Monday, 18 May 2015

Swimwear Summer 2015



Hello everyone! I hope you have a good start of the week. As usual today at school we had a bomb signal so we had to "evaculate". This has happened three times this month and I doubt it is going to stop soon because it's almost the end of the year and people just don't want to go to school. So since I came back home at 14:20 (this term in Bulgaria we start school at 13:30 and finish at 18:25. Previous term we started at 07:30 and finished at 13:30) I had the whole day to myself and instead of studting for tomorrow I backed some cookies and looked at clothing websites all day. I made this little set of swimsuits and swim and beach wear in general. These are some of the things that caught my eyes. I hope you like them. 

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1. The first ting is this kimono from Bershka (you can buy it here). Kimonos are really popular this season and they can be worn over a tank top and some shorts or even over your swimsuit if you are going to the pool or for a nice relaxing day at the beach. This one is quite long so it is perfect since it is going to cover most of your  body and it's floral which is always a plus.
2. Hats are essential in the summer time because you have to protect your face and eyes from the sun. This one is from H&M    (buy here). It is very summery and what caught my eyes is the black bow. I was about to buy the hat today when I realised that is was a size L and apparently I have quite small head so it looked horrendous.
3.Going to the beach without a bag is like going to school without your notebooks. You need a big bag so that you can fit all of your beach essentials like sunscreen, towel, glasses, snacks.This one is from Bershka and I think it goes really well with the hat. It is the perfect beach bag because it is not going to get dirty and it has one big pocket where you can fit everything you need.    (you can buy it here)
4. If you are not OK with showing too much skin and going just with a kimono playsuits are perfect for you. You can also wear them on everyday basis because with some accessories they make a very casual and comfortable outfit. I love the colours of this one from Stradivarius. It hangs very loosely around you body and it has s string so that you can tighten it around your waist.    (buy here)
5.Flip flops or sandals as you may call them are next on my list. These ones are from New Look and are super cute. The pastel colour goes perfectly with the whole theme of this post. I don't have anything too much to say about them  so.. yeah.    (buy here)
6. And last but not least on the list of accessories and clothing are sunglasses. They are as important as hats are because you want to protect your eyes. These ones are from Boohoo. I have quite a difficult time buying glasses because it appears that I have quite a small face and big glasses swallow me up. But I think these ones would be good and will fit quite well.    (buy here)
And now comes my favourite part. Since last year I got obsessed with swimming suits. Last year I bought a white bikini top for H&M which had black polka dots all over it and for bottoms I got some light blue ones with ruffles along the top. They looked great together but the top turned yellow after I swam in a pool so I had to buy a new one but the problem was that it happened in august when all bikini top were sold and they had only big sizes or ugly ones so this whole year I spend searching the web for a new one.
7. The first one and probably my favourite one is from Boohoo. It has an aztec print and high waisted bottoms. High waisted bottoms look very trendy and are perfect for someone who doesn't want to show too much of their tummy but the only downfall is that you are going to end up with quite a funny lines   .(buy here)
8. These ones have a very similar bottoms to the ones that I got from H&M last year. The top also has ruffles and a gap. This type of swimming suit is very popular these days and you can see a lot of people wearing them. My favourite thing about it is the colour. Pastel pink is my life.    (buy here)
9. And last is the swimming suit that i went for this year. I bought it because the top is going to go with my blue bottoms that I don't have a top for anymore. It is blue and has a floral pattern which if you haven;t noticed already is my favourite. It has straps which is very convenient and the top has this popular twist in the front but other than that it is quite a standard swimsuit.

This is everything that I have for you today. I hope you enjoyed this post and get excited because summer is just around the corner. :)
xoxo Moni :)

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